Finally settling in..!
I originally posted this on our myspace page, but it really speaks to where I am right now, so I wanted to re-post it here for those of you who don't participate in the myspace psychosis!
It's no secret that I've had a hard time adjusting to everything that has happened this year. I didn't have the time or desire to deal with how many things in my life changed simultaneously, so I just pretended that nothing was happening. While it was easier for me to deal with everything, it clearly made things much harder for the people around me. I'm really sorry to anybody who didn't know how, or if, to talk to me over the last 12 months. I have finally taken the time to digest, appreciate, and deal with how completely different everything is from a year ago, and I'm doing fine... now!
I'm even learning to be really happy about it. Moving was the hardest. I had wanted Nate to find a better job for years, but that didn't make moving away from my beautiful home and friends and family any easier. I was even a little mad since I had finally settled into a job in Tampa that I was now going to be commuting 90 min. to every day. Between the commuting and being pregnant the only thing I did at home was sleep. We had no opportunity to meet new people or become familiar with our new home town. And while dealing with the loss of our pregnancy was one of the hardest things I've ever had to understand, it was not as painful as feeling the hopelessness of free falling through my life.
It's taken a long time, but I can now truly appreciate how much moving has added to the quality of our lives. Our marriage has grown by leaps and bounds. I cannot even imagine how we would have gotten to such a wonderful place without moving. Each of us has also grown tremendously as individuals, as professionals, and as partners. Even though moving is incredibly stressful, it is so comforting to know we are moving to a place we can truly call HOME again, both in physical surroundings, and in our hearts. I have finally settled into our new lives, and I couldn't be happier! ;) -L
Sabrina's beautiful birthday card for Cristy. She is just too funny and brilliant! I can't stand how insightful she can be!!
It's no secret that I've had a hard time adjusting to everything that has happened this year. I didn't have the time or desire to deal with how many things in my life changed simultaneously, so I just pretended that nothing was happening. While it was easier for me to deal with everything, it clearly made things much harder for the people around me. I'm really sorry to anybody who didn't know how, or if, to talk to me over the last 12 months. I have finally taken the time to digest, appreciate, and deal with how completely different everything is from a year ago, and I'm doing fine... now!
I'm even learning to be really happy about it. Moving was the hardest. I had wanted Nate to find a better job for years, but that didn't make moving away from my beautiful home and friends and family any easier. I was even a little mad since I had finally settled into a job in Tampa that I was now going to be commuting 90 min. to every day. Between the commuting and being pregnant the only thing I did at home was sleep. We had no opportunity to meet new people or become familiar with our new home town. And while dealing with the loss of our pregnancy was one of the hardest things I've ever had to understand, it was not as painful as feeling the hopelessness of free falling through my life.
It's taken a long time, but I can now truly appreciate how much moving has added to the quality of our lives. Our marriage has grown by leaps and bounds. I cannot even imagine how we would have gotten to such a wonderful place without moving. Each of us has also grown tremendously as individuals, as professionals, and as partners. Even though moving is incredibly stressful, it is so comforting to know we are moving to a place we can truly call HOME again, both in physical surroundings, and in our hearts. I have finally settled into our new lives, and I couldn't be happier! ;) -L
Sabrina's beautiful birthday card for Cristy. She is just too funny and brilliant! I can't stand how insightful she can be!!
posted by Lexy Sykes | 6:53 PM
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wow, i LOVE that picture!!! hahaha
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